Friday, July 31, 2009

Sylvia Plath

every time i read a poem composed by sylvia plath, i feel so emotionally wrung out i cannot read another. she is incredibly demanding of the reader, forcing us into the black recesses of ourselves, into those twisted dark corners we spend so much of our energy trying to forget exist. here are two. again, both belong to sylvia plath:

Aquatic Nocturne

deep in liquid
turquoise slivers
of dilute light

quiver in thin streaks
of bright tinfoil
on mobile jet:

pale flounder
waver by
tilting silver:

in the shallows
agile minnows
flicker gilt:

grapeblue mussels
dilate lithe and
pliant valves:

dull lunar globes
of blubous jellyfish
glow milkgreen:

eels twirl
in wily spirals
on elusive tails:

adroir lobsters
amble darkly olive
on shrewd claws:

down where sound
comes blunt and wan
like the bronze tone
of a sunken gong.


The Moon and the Yew Tree

This is the light of the mind, cold and planetary
The trees of the mind are black. The light is blue.
The grasses unload their griefs on my feet as if I were God
Prickling my ankles and murmuring of their humility
Fumy, spiritous mists inhabit this place.
Separated from my house by a row of headstones.
I simply cannot see where there is to get to.

The moon is no door. It is a face in its own right,
White as a knuckle and terribly upset.
It drags the sea after it like a dark crime; it is quiet
With the O-gape of complete despair. I live here.
Twice on Sunday, the bells startle the sky --
Eight great tongues affirming the Resurrection
At the end, they soberly bong out their names.

The yew tree points up, it has a Gothic shape.
The eyes lift after it and find the moon.
The moon is my mother. She is not sweet like Mary.
Her blue garments unloose small bats and owls.
How I would like to believe in tenderness -
The face of the effigy, gentled by candles,
Bending, on me in particular, its mild eyes.

I have fallen a long way. Clouds are flowering
Blue and mystical over the face of the stars
Inside the church, the saints will all be blue,
Floating on their delicate feet over the cold pews,
Their hands and faces stiff with holiness.
The moon sees nothing of this. She is bald and wild.
And the message of the yew tree is blackness - blackness and silence.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

"You are unique, and if that is not fulfilled, then something has been lost. "


Martha Graham, Letter to The World, "The Kick". 1940. photo Barbara Morgan

“There is a vitality, a life force, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and there is only one of you in all time, this expression is unique, and if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium; and be lost. The world will not have it. It is not your business to determine how good it is, not how it compares with other expression. It is your business to keep it yours clearly and directly, to keep the channel open. You do not even have to believe in yourself or your work. You have to keep open and aware directly to the urges that motivate you. Keep the channel open. No artist is pleased. There is no satisfaction whatever at any time. There is only a queer, divine dissatisfaction, a blessed unrest that keeps us marching and makes us more alive than the others.”
-Martha Graham

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Incantation

your lips
taste like stars
as they touch mine
in the moment
just before
time
stops...

...and rewinds
to the beginning.

back to a time
when i smelled like melted Popsicles
and your smile didn't tilt quite so
perilously
near the edge of your chin.

back to a time
before we realized how small we are
and the inky shadow of Everything
forever
stained the corner of your eye.

my breath
brushes like clouds
against your ear
as i whisper
the secret,
magic
words...

...and for us
the world shrinks.

back down to
the size of a marble,
its yellow cat's eye
disappearing
under your Chuck T's.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

buxom. or not.

Main Entry: buxom
Part of Speech: adjective
Definition: bosomy
Synonyms: ample, built, busty, chubby, comely, curvaceous, curvy, full-bosomed, full-figured, healthy, hearty, lusty, plump, robust, shapely, stacked, voluptuous, well-made, well-proportioned, well-rounded, zaftig
Antonyms: flat, petite, small

see that bit at the end? you got it! and i know it is an alphabetized list, but still, does flat really have to be first? must it be there at all?

let's investigate that entry, shall we?

Main Entry: flat
Part of Speech: adjective
Definition: level, smooth
Synonyms: collapsed, complanate, decumbent, deflated, depressed, empty, even, extended, fallen, flush, horizontal, laid low, low, oblate, outstretched, pancake*, planar, planate, plane, procumbent, prone, prostrate, punctured, reclining, recumbent, splay, spread out, supine, tabular, unbroken


i'm liking pancake*. and after that list, i completely understand depressed and deflated. thank you Thesaurus.com. as if the world wasn't full enough of big boobied women stuffed under my nose on television or in various other media venues, now i get to read about them during my studies. look at this! even the less physical entry lends itself to a poor reflection of self:

Main Entry: flat
Part of Speech: adjective
Definition: dull, lackluster to the senses
Synonyms: banal, blah, bland, blind, boring, colorless, dead, dim, drab, draggy, flavorless, ho hum, inane, innocuous, insipid, jejune, lead balloon, lifeless, matte, monotonous, muted, pointless, prosaic, prosy, sapless, spiritless, stale, tasteless, tedious, uninteresting, unpalatable, unsavory, unseasoned, vanilla*, vapid, watery, weak, whitebread
Antonyms: bubbly, effervescent, sharp


we start off grandly with dull and move right along to some winners:
banal, blah, bland, and boring. how about stale? or tedious? and vanilla*? i don't even like vanilla, thank you.

oh! let's make sure to get that last line in. we non-buxomettes are definitely not
bubbly, effervescent, or sharp!

and to think, i was just looking up a synonym for plump.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

a few of my favorite things...

specifically, this post is about two of my favorite things:
socks.




and vegetables.










no, no, no! not vegetables in socks. that would be gross. and probably rather messy if you didn't use raw ones. (raw vegetables, not raw socks. although, since i have never cooked my socks, i guess they are raw as well. but i digress...)

my favorite things are best enjoyed separately, however i have been known to simultaneously enjoy the wearing of raw socks while enjoying the eating of vegetables, raw or otherwise. again, back to my point...

i cannot remember how long ago i came across the website Sock Dreams, but i keep going back. they really do have great socks. well, great socks for people who hate plain old white socks. people like me!

see, those are good for the gym. (afterall, why would you want to stinkify your Fantastic Socks?) but as a wardrobe choice...??? how good do a plain old pair of white socks look? with anything? even gym shoes? now, don't get me wrong. white socks can be fabulous. for instance, these:




are all good examples of UNplain white socks, the charming, sexy choices which highlight the femininity of your feet. some women like sexy panties. or striking lipstick. i like Sexy Socks.

onward to vegetables...

when you live in a house of carnivores, convincing them to try the bounty from the earth can be quite a harrowing experience. (i have even had broccoli thrown at my head!)

so rarely do i get to indulge my passion of consuming exquisitely prepared vegetables, i have had to resort to window shopping. i can often be found in the produce section caressing cucumbers while eyeballing eggplant, tickling tomatoes while surveying spinach...(i'll stop. sorry.)

i fantasize. i live vicariously through various websites i have come across looking for recipes on the rare occasions i am alone and can cook a meal of my choosing. such as VeganYumYum. i actually got a chance to make the lasagna a month or two ago, and i have to agree. YumYum!

there you have it. one day, i am sure you will find me happily preparing some exotic vegetable something-or-other while wearing Sexy Socks...you know, when i am 60 and all my kids have moved away.

Friday, February 27, 2009

i <3 cats



is it the buggedy eyes? or maybe the fact that crazy cat is squinched up in the sleeve of a sweater? i dunno, exactly, but i like it...probably too much.